[post from Terezi's communicator- locked to Eridan 40%]

[cuttlefishcull]

Eridan!
Are you ok? Terezi said you were back and
Just answer ok?

Comments

[caligulasaqua]

i might be ok
i think it depends on if i can trust you or not though

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[she switches to video showing the inside of Terezi's room. She doesn't show herself and when she talks her voice is shaky.] I'm with Terezi, this is her communicator. I can- I can find her and she'll tell you.

[caligulasaqua]

[his next response is slightly delayed, and still text- there's no way he's turning on the audio, where she can hear the beeps, or video, where she can see the lovely purple all over the walls.]

no you dont havve to do that
i mean unless you wwant to
its ok just

im fine
nothin bads happenin
im just fine here in my block doin nothin and thinkin about nothin and bein wworthless again thats all

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[caligulasaqua]

i knoww
she helped me out a wwhole lot
kan did too



i am too wworthless
i couldnt evven
i just
you wwere right dowwn the fuckin hall
only like four doors awway
but i couldnt do a single thing cause if i evven tried id just
explode
and

just i hate this i dont knoww wwhats goin on i just wwanted you to be safe i dont care if you care about me or not or if wwere pale or flushed or not but you HAVVE to stay safe youre the only thing that matters to me ok

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[she is pointedly NOT going to mention how her twin had Kanaya now too.]

[caligulasaqua]

its not like im tryin to die i just cant really help it
ivve been so close so many times already this wweek and
ok no nevvermind im not talkin about that

i dont really knoww
i just
i
i wwant to see you but i dont think i can really leavve my block yet im still feelin awwful from dyin and i dont wwant you to come ovver
you shouldnt see this its disgustin
so
i dont knoww

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[caligulasaqua]

ok

just
i dont
if it starts beepin too much youvve got to get awway ok

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[and after a little while she makes it to his door, knocking. Admittedly she looks like crap, more because it's obvious she's panicked by what's going on and many other feelings and emotions rather than injury. One of her hands has a few fingers splinted and there's gauze covering a few places on one of her arms and shoulder but otherwise she's not to bad. She didn't blow up at least.]

Eridan? [She calls a little quietly, looking over her shoulder. So paranoid.]

[caligulasaqua]

[it takes him a bit to actually open the door, between feeling like shit and just not trusting just about anyone, but when he finally does he just kind of... stands there. he doesn't even know what to do now and he just feels like he's failed her and he really doesn't want her in his room... there are so many feelings over here. and just a little bit of beeping, too.]

...Hey.

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[And to no one's great surprise the first thing she does is hug him, holding tight. It takes her a while to pull back, offering him a shaky smile.]

Hey. I- I'm glad your back.

[caligulasaqua]

[when she first hugs him the beeping speeds up for a moment before he just relaxes and hugs her back.]

I don't care about that. I'm just glad you're safe.

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

Sorry. [She finally takes in the room, trying not to wince. God she hoped that was gone after reset.] How are you feeling? You've been eating right?

[caligulasaqua]

...I've been eatin' okay. I guess. I've got stuff in here to eat so I'm okay.

And I feel fine. [has there ever been a more obvious lie? okay this is Eridan so maybe, but it's still not very likely.]

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

You're such a bad liar, doofus. [She offers him a shaky smile at that.] I think as long as you stay off the network you'll be ok... promise you'll try to?

[caligulasaqua]

Only if you promise to try and stay safe. And really try, not just say you'll try but then go run off and do somethin' stupid. [because she is clearly the one that does that, not him.]

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[clearly. though admittedly that's exactly what she was probably going to do]

I will, just- [she looks down, taking a deep breath. It really wouldn't be a good idea to tell him how much trouble Kanaya, Sollux and John were in. What had already happened.] We'll save them. We did before. But you have to... you have to be around to help.

[caligulasaqua]

But me just sittin' here doesn't help anyone. It doesn't even help me 'cause then I just worry about everythin' and then I'm gonna explode or somethin'. I'd rather help you.

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

You can help! Not if you go explode though. [she glances up] I don't- I'm not sure anyone can help, not right now. She still- they still have people. John's twin and Patchouli's are too strong...

[she frowns, shaking her head and grabbing his arm.] Hey, let's focus on something else, ok? For now.

[caligulasaqua]

...Fine. If you want to. [of course he's gone right back to beeping because now he's worried about her again. but he doesn't even pay it much attention because really, he's gotten kind of used to it sporadically making itself known what with all his emotions and everything. :|]

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

[Darn it, she was hoping to focus on something to keep that beeping from starting again. Man this was going to be tricky. Darn, no good feelings and emotions.]

Were you human last week? [She forces a smile. It was hard not to continue fretting over this week but if it was to keep Eridan alive she'd do it in a heart beat] I can't really remember seeing you.

[caligulasaqua]

Yeah, I was. And it was fuckin' stupid.

Except the magic part. That part was pretty awesome.

[cuttlefishcull.livejournal.com]

Magic- wait were you a wizard?

[caligulasaqua]

Yeah. And a pretty awesome one, too.