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When Sollux was thrown in the room Feferi crawled up immediately, grasping his arm despite the pain in her hand and burns. Her twin simply stood in the doorway, goggles obscuring her eyes as she looked on with a bright, sharp grin.

"You- you-" She tried to get up, tried to dash over and hurt her but the twin just laughs, slamming the door in her face. Feferi slides down it, choking back a sob before crawling back to Sollux, pressing her face into his shoulder.

"Sollux, Sollux..." She mutters. "Why, you-" She grits her teeth. "Stupid."

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"Aw, come on Sollux!" The twin grabs him by the throat, lifting him with her strength easily. She tightens her grip slowly. "We can do this the hard way or the easy way."

With that she throws him on the floor, grin completely manic. "I want you to kneel and greet your Empress properly. Bow your filthy mutant head-" She smiles sweetly. "Or I'll tear her arm off."

"You-" Feferi snarls, trying to dash at her but her injuries make it easy for her twin to grab her arm, twisting it painfully behind her back. "The clock is ticking Sollux! Bow to me."

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He claws at her hands instinctively as he's forced into the air against his will. He can't breathe shit shit shit. Just as the panix sets in, he's on the floor again. He rubs at his throat, regaining his breath. His gaze is focused on the floor as he thinks of what he should do next. Would she tear off FF's arm? He didn't know, he just didn't. He didn't want to cooperate, but something this small. He'd just wait. Wait until she put FF down. Then he could be as belligerent as he wanted. After a few seconds he gets on his knees like she said and bows to her, and he's disgusted with himself almost instantly. Even back home the empress didn't go out of her way to torture trolls. She wasn't an empress, she was just a twisted vision. The thought insult gives him some small comfort. A very very small comfort.

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The twin just smiles, tossing Feferi to the side again. She looks back at Feferi, smiles still pleasant. "If you make anymore fuss I'll rip off one of his horns." She says, like a mother scolding a child. Then she turns back to Sollux, walking over.

"If it wasn't for Terezi you would have come right over- you're so pathetic Sollux. It's cute, really." She grabs Sollux's arm, lifting him again. "That's why she doesn't trust you, you know." She grasps his chin, looking him over. "Your twin was much betta, maybe not the most... tactful, but at least he wasn't afraid of himself."

"Oh, where to begin." Apparently the place to begin is by punching him hard in the stomach before whispering in his ear. "Ask her what Eridan did back home."

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Yes. She'd let Feferi go. Now he could ignore this crazy bitch, for lack of a better word, as much as he wanted. She grabs his chin, forcing his gaze her way. But he makes sure to not look at her, looking past her instead. He doesn't trust anything he says, but when she goes on about his twin, he can't help growing annoyed. That jackass.

"I'm afraid of myself!" wait, no, he meant to say he wasn't. "..only half the time." nonono, he was supposed to say sometimes!

What the hell was wrong with him? He grows slightly flushed with embarrassment, resolving not to talk anymore after this. Of course he doesn't have much time to think about that before he's being punched in the stomach. He collapses to the floor, the wind knocked out of him, coughing and gasping for air. Of course that makes it easier to ignore what she says next. Don't believe anything she says, she's just trying to get you. He repeats to himself over and over.

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Both Feferi's look a little puzzled by that, Feferi looking worried and her twin mildly curious. Was this some technique? Cute. Then again, stranger things had been happening this week. Maybe it was more.

"You're afraid you're going to kill everything you touch again." The twin answers, stepping on his shoulder to keep him pressed to the floor. "Sollux-" Feferi starts, only to have her twin continue. "Like Aradia, like the virus. How pathetic. Instead of being remotely useful you whine and carp- it's pathetic. To be expected of a mutant low blood."

"But we're all here to truthful Sollux! So let me share a little secret." Feferi's eyes widen as her twin speaks, she meant- "Do you want to know why Kanaya has been acting strangely with Eridan? Why Karkat has? Do you want to know what she has-" She gestures at Feferi. "-known for two weeks?"

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Her words hit harder than the blow to his stomach had. She was echoing all his own thoughts, saying all the things he told himself in his darker hours. He coughs, its difficult to speak with her foot holding him down like that.

"I don't... want to hear.. anything.. you have to say."

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"Oh, you do Sollux." The twin leans down, foot still planted on his shoulder. "Eridan killed Kanaya."

Feferi winces, taking a deep breath before blurting out. "Kanaya said he killed me too." She would say it, she'd say it before her twin did. It didn't make things much better but like hell she'd let her twin have that. Her double just glances over, apparently not upset at this, still grinning like a knife cut. "I thought-"

"She thought you might hurt Eridan. She thought it might hurt you." Her twin continues, stepping away to go over to the bundle she brought in. "She didn't trust you."

"That's not true!" Feferi hisses, blinking rapidly. "I-"

"It's true enough." Her twin sing songs, walking over to Feferi with makeshift bindings. "Now hold still."

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It's pretty hard to keep telling himself the things this childish empress was saying weren't true when Feferi echoed her statements. He feels his anger build inside him at what's she's saying, and the psionic build up it brings hurts, his energy pulling at his seams looking for release. He just curls in on himself when she removes her foot. Clutching his stomach and glancing to the real Feferi. He can't hid the betrayed look that crosses his face, unobscured by the usual red and blue colored lenses.

No she was lying she had to be. "FF.." he says, his eyes never leaving hers, but his voice growing panicked. What was she going to do to her? Please, don't let her hurt FF to badly, please please please.

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Feferi struggles against her twin at first, eventually giving up when Sollux catches her attention more. She looks back over at him, guilty but at least she's keeping his eye. I'm sorry. She wants to say- she wants to talk to him about this, have a chance to explain herself but she can't, not when her twin is right there, ready to twist it all.

Her twin proceeds to tie her hands behind her back, painfully tight enough that Feferi starts to struggle again. Her twin does the same to her ankles, patting her mockingly on the head before going over to Sollux.

"Nothing to say? I don't even have to try here!" She kneels down, grabbing him so he was lying on his back- making sure that Feferi could see it perfectly.

"She loves your eyes you know." She says in a quiet tone, a tone that makes Feferi being to struggle furiously when the implications and possibilities of that statement start to set in.

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"Great then. At least one of use does." he says, his anger at being pushed around like this beginning to show. His resolve to stay quiet already thin after seeing her harsh treatment of Feferi. He looks straight at the town, his glare venomous. There's that feeling of his psionic energy pushing again as it builds with his anger, but he manages to ignore it. He struggles for a moment seeing if he can break free from her grip. If he could just throw her off of him. The door was right there. He and Feferi could get out of here. They could get out and hide until this week was over. If only there was some way.

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The struggling from both just makes the twin laugh, grabbing Sollux's throat again and squeezing. "Shh, shh, keep still! Sollux what I'm about to do is really delicate! You won't want me to cause some real damage with this thing!" She pulls out what looks like a small, rather blunt piece of metal from the waist of her skirt, holding it up as she keeps the pressure on Sollux's throat.

"I'm doing you a favor Sollux, I'm speeding the prophecy along! You've been waiting on the edge of your dumb human seat to go blind, hm? So much stress, too much worry, but I'll take it all away!"

She straddles his chest, using her knees to keep his arms down. She couldn't help but grin so sharply, all his amazing powers nothing against her own strength. Simple, brute force. The twin leans in a bit, face close to Sollux's.

"You hate them, don't you? A big bass mark of what a useless little freak you are." She says quietly as Feferi's struggles grow more desperate, calling Sollux's name. "You can even say it's two wingbeasts, one stone, hm?" Her grin widens. "Get it?"

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His body tries to cough instinctively as it grows harder to breath, but her hand is still at his neck, stopping him from moving. He eyes the piece of metal she has warily. Growing cold as he start to realize what kind of position he is really in right now. He doesn't stop struggling, but its in vain. She's too strong, and they both know it. He tries to pull away as she leans towards him, but the very solid floor below him prevents that from happening. He closes his eyes because he's afraid and its the only thing he can think to do, but also because what she was saying was true. He didn't want her to see how much her words bothered him, though somehow he thought she already knew. It wasn't supposed to happen this way.

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"Stop, stop!" Feferi begins to yell, voice growing more and more panicked, struggling so hard the bindings creaked. Her twin just turns her head, looking straight at Feferi with the same sharp grin.

"This is what you get for trying to forget me." She says in a low hiss before turning back to Sollux. "This is what you get for all you've done. The virus, Aradia, every failure stacked on top of each other. You deserve this Sollux, and you know it." She says, tone mockingly fond as she places the metal against the corner of his eye.

It doesn't take long with the makeshift instrument, one hand holding his head still while the other worked away. Feferi's hollers become shrieks, then begging, tears falling down her face as she asks her to stop, please please please stop, she'd do whatever her twin wanted, she'd call her whatever she wanted, just-

When she's done the double carefully picks the removed eye up, perfectly blue besides the yellow dripping from it. "One." She says cheerfully, placing it to the side.

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It's the hardest he has ever struggled in his life, but his arms are pinned. Her hand is gripping his jaw hard enough to bruise and he can't do anything. He can't even move his head to the side as she brings that makeshift blade down to his eyes, and he can honestly say this is the most terrified he's ever been in his entire life. His eyes close again instinctively but it doesn't matter as she plunges the knife into his eye socket.

He screams. How could he not? It hurts, fuck it hurts, it feels like his eye is on fire, but he's helpless. Tears well up in his eyes, the yellow tears mixing with the same colored blood in his left eye. Blood thats slowly dripping down the side of his face. Blood that causes an awful squelching sound Sollux will never be able to wipe from his memory as with careful fingers she plucks out his eye.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck," he cries out, his torn eyelid falling closed. He's not aware of his surroundings or his gibbering. "Please, please no. It hurts." All he's aware of is the pain and of her leering face. The last thing he'll ever see in his life.

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"You deserve this Sollux!" The twin sing songs over the sound of Feferi screaming at her. "Isn't this what you want? A way to relieve your guilt, you have so much of it! Now you can finally suffer for it the way you always deserved."

She leans in again, clamping Sollux's mouth shut as she whispers to him. "Do you think this is even close to what Aradia suffered? You know the week after my departure she heard Aradia's thoughts. It was just muffled sobbing, screaming, over and over."

The twin pulls back, grasping Sollux's jaw to keep him still once more. "Maybe I'll keep you alive, maybe you'll just have to live with this. You'll never be able to feel her touch again without thinking of me. Wouldn't that be exciting?"

And she starts on the other eye. Feferi stops screaming, stops begging, just sobs quietly and grits her teeth.

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Aradia. It had only been a couple of weeks since he'd spoken to her. In the flesh, even. She had been, well, lively, like her cheerful old self. She'd actually smiled, and Sollux couldn't remember the las time she'd done that. He'd talked to her and she'd told him what he'd always wanted to hear. That she didn't blame him. She had forgiven him so easily. He was surprised, but, glad. As the week wore on, he he started to think he could finally put all of it behind him. Move past the stupid guilt, forgive himself for all the stupid things he'd done, for all the times he couldn't help like he wanted to. For being dangerous and useless and not deserving to exist.

It was stupid really, he thought. He'd been stupid to be so hopeful. He'd never be able to put it behind him, and he shouldn't be. He'd always be useless, he'd always be dangerous, he'd always be her murderer. He'd made her suffer, it was his fault she'd been that way. Even if she said it was okay, how could he have ever thought anything could make up for that? She'd just been being kind to him. She was always kind, and thats how he'd repaid her. By burning her alive.

He was a useless asshole, and this was what he deserved. He couldn't even save Feferi, it turned out. Not even from someone like Eridan. Karkat was always getting used and torn apart by this place too. They all were, always, and he couldn't even do a single thing to help any of them. Feferi didn't even believe in him enough to tell him the truth. To tell him what she knew. Or maybe she was ashamed of him, that he hadn't been able to protect her.

He tries not to scream out as she starts on the second eye. To take his punishment without complaints. Its difficult and he doesn't make it through without some sounds of pain escaping his lips, but compared to before, the change in volume is significant. He tries to catch a glimpse of the real Feferi before everything goes dark, but of course its impossible, and just like that, its gone. He can't see anything. His whole world is darkness and Feferi's helpless sobs. And Sollux couldn't do anything to stop them, to save her, or to show her it was alright. He was so weak.

"F-fuck you." he manages to stammer out. The insult is wavering, his throat tight from silent tears.

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When the twin is done she places the red eye next to the blue, looking down to admire the pair before her eyes turn to her handiwork. "Perfect." She says, leaning down and placing a deceptively soft kiss on his lips. "And now you're the way you were meant to be. You're welcome, Sollux."

She stands suddenly, grabbing the front of Sollux's shirt to lift him. "Let's show her our handiwork, hm?" And she walks over to Feferi, practically tossing him besides her. "What do you think? Why don't you tell him how much this new look suits him!"

Feferi tries to choke back a sob, eyes shut. Her twin kneels beside them, grinning viciously. "Aw Sollux, she can't even look at you!"

"Shut up!" Feferi snaps, forcing herself to look at Sollux's blood stained face. "Sollux- I- I'm so sorry." She whispers, shifting her bound hands to grasp the fabric at his chest tightly.

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He almost considers spitting in her face when she leans down to kiss him, but doing so would just be an empty sign at this point. Most scorn he'd held towards the Empress vanished when he realized how right she was. He still hated her for hurting Feferi, for using him to hurt Feferi, but he was just as much to blame for that really. For letting himself get caught.

The sensation of being moved against your own will was never pleasant. No one could enjoy being tossed around like a rag doll, but the feeling was somehow magnified when you couldn't see where you were being thrown or even how high off the ground you were. His body was tense, and when he gets tossed, he can't even catch himself. How could he when he has no sense of where the floor is or of how far he is from a wall. The experience of being thrown into what may as well have been a dark abyss is actually frightening in a way. His head hits the wall rather hard and he knows any bruises that were forning there had just been made worse.

He reaches for Feferi, reaching towards the sounds of her crying, but shirks back when her twin says she won't even look at him. That was it wasn't it, she was ashamed of him, disgusted with him. When she grabs his shirt, he stiffens for a moment. He doesn't know if he is going to get tossed again or which Feferi is grabbing him, but when he hears he voice he relaxes. He doesn't know why she is apologizing, and he doesn't know what to say to calm her down again. His eyes hurt and he feels tired. He's lost all energy and he isn't sure if he can do anything other than sit there. He reaches for Feferi's hands, in some attempt to comfort her, but then he thinks she's probably too disgusted with him and puts his hands back by his side again, muttering a soft "S-sorry." to her in the process.

"Please.. let her go." he says, facing the direction he heard the other Feferi's voice from last. Maybe this was enough for FF to go through. She didn't deserve this, getting hurt like this, she was too good for that. "Please." he reiterates, he sounds desperate and pleading. "I'll do anything. I know I deserve it, but..."

He thinks of bowing to her again, and cringes. He isn't sure why the thought is so innately repulsive to him, he doesn't have any dignity left to loose afterall, and maybe if she let Feferi go. If she just let Feferi go maybe he could have done this one last useful thing, to help her, even if ultimately he failed. He reaches out with his hand, and slowly gets on his knees and bows to her. Or at least he really hopes he's bowing to her.

"Please, Empress."

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"Sollux, no." Feferi breaths, when he bows. He had reached and pulled back, did he- no. She wasn't going to consider that he blamed her, if he should blame her, she wouldn't give her twin the satisfaction. Not when she had more important things to focus on.

She glances to her twin, cringing at the look of utter delight on the double's face. The twin steps over, grabbing Feferi by her uninjured arm. "I don't know Sollux, I'm not sure you really know you deserve it."

She drags Feferi away, making sure to make plenty of noise with the process, tossing Feferi with a thud against the wall, the metal clatter of her weapon in the stove again. Let him imagine it, settle with the blindness. "I think you should prove it."

Feferi can't help but stare at the heating metal, trying not to fall back into flashbacks and that small room weeks ago. It was easier this time, she had Sollux to focus on, tearing her eyes from the stove to him. "Sollux." She says softly. "Please don't listen to her, you don't deserve this, you never deserved this, I love-"

Her twin cuts her off, sinking the heated metal onto the burns already on her arm. Feferi tries to fight it but she ends up shrieking, the smell of burning flesh and smoke punctuating it.

"How rude, interrupting." Her twin says over the screaming, grinning back to Sollux. "Like I said, prove it. Let's start with you breaking your fingers, hm? The whole hand, then I'll stop."

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And oh, his imagination assumes the worst of those sounds. He's nothing if not an absolute pessimist. He cringes, hearing the clatter of her weapon and even more when Feferi screams. Of course Feferi would say something like that. She never got it, she never thought he was as terrible as he really was. He could never really understand why she did that. How she could so faultlessly believe something without even a single doubt. God, she was too good for him.

He gets back onto his legs sitting against the wall before lifting his hand up in front of him. He wishes he had his abilities back right now if only so he could break them all at once, but instead he is forced to go one finger at a time. He works from index finger to pinky, doing the thumb last. Each crack of bone followed by a wince of his own, and sometimes a pained cry. Breaking his thumb is the hardest, he isn't sure why.